User Profile

I finally decided I needed a space to reveal all the portions of myself that I hide from most people..
My love of things dark and forbidden.. or strange and unusual.. or simply the things I can't share with my friends and family.
Like my interest in alternative lifestyle and fashion... or the fact that I'm bi.
I am into BDSM, fashion, japanese culture, alternative music. Or that I desperately wish I could get more piercings without my family having a fuss. Or wish I could have a visible tattoo.

I look like a typical "American" girl.. and have been raised middle class and have really led a pampered sheltered life.
My family is extremely religious, and I've always been the dutiful daughter. (Still am)
It is sometimes soo hard to hide the "inner" me, I want to just SCREAM sometimes.
I have another journal. It is what I share with all my "nice good little friends". But honestly I shouldn't put them down.. they *are* my friends.. they just don't really see the "real" me.

I plan to move soon..
I want to get away..so I am looking into Fashion Design schools in Southern California. My girlfriend and I are both saving up to move soon.
I am hoping to meet people and finally be able to be really who I am.

I have eclectic interest, from video games, anime, dance clubs, to classical music, having tea, and going to museums. I love art in all it's forms, and often wish I was more talented at my hobbies.
I like meeting people with similar interests, but I like people in general.

My latest obsession is with trying to learn how to scrapbook. I've purchased a ton of materials, but can't seem to get off my butt to actually DO anything with them.

I also wish so badly I knew how to sew.. I keep promising myself I will teach myself. What kind of design fashion person doesn't know how right? I feel so.. behind in that regard. But anyway.. one day I'll find someone to sew my creations for me *hahahaha* We'll be the power team!

Anyway.. I finally decided I need to be able to share this side of me.. even if I stay behind a mask.. at least I can hopefully find people who can relate to this side of me, even if over the internet.